THESE MOMENTS ARE SO KIND

this post. THIS POST.

(intros are hard :/ heres a dog instead)

it was so hard to figure out what i even wanted to say because mainly this feels like a jumble of ideas and thoughts and FEELINGS. okay. it still is, but...

welcome back to my vlogless vlog. this is about to be a rollercoaster of emotions and ideas so arms down, head back, and hold on (real ohioans can relate). 

i am the biggest believer in everything happening for a reason, especially with the right people being placed in your life exactly when they need to be. and even though i believe this completely, i am always SO SHOCKED when it happens to me. shook. its kind of like a reminder to me that God has it all planned out, and to just trust him. its so easy to look back at these moments and be able to see them after theyre gone and say “i didn’t understand it at the time, but i needed that—im grateful i had it, but its okay that its gone” because thats LIFE. we go through tiny weird phases that shape us to who we are now. thats just growth. 

the moments that hit the hardest are the ones that you can FEEL. its the days you spend doing things that terrify you completely, but end up being some of the best days of your life. these are the moments that are so so bittersweet. 

i had just recently made a decision to meet up with a friend in FLA for a couple of days for fun and those couple of days were so interesting in the most positive way possible and i am feeling every bit of it right now. my brother picked me up from the airport, and i cried not once, but TWICE on the way home. at first i thought it was because i was coming back to ohio (sad sad) butttt i was crying because i was so overwhelmingly happy that i keep having these experiences that overflow my heart. I have been so greedy the past year; making my own happiness a priority above even the jo-bros. ~crazy~

but these choices are so bittersweet. SO bittersweet. i get these moments that i live in, and i never want to leave them because theyre so genuine and completely effortless that its almost not real. i have met the coolest people, seen the most breathtaking places, and every time i come home, i always have the exact same feeling: LIFE SHOULD FEEL LIKE THIS ALL THE TIME.

its so natural to get over comfortable with where youre at in life, especially when you’re at this awkward transition age. everyone is at such different points in their lives but everyone also seems to be searching for this weird comfort—as if once we’re comfortable we’ll be happy. im 18 years old, and lemme tell ya, the only comfort i want right now is the comfort of a baggy sweatshirt on a plane to somewhere different. one of my absolute absolute favorite songs ever is Quinn XCII Another Day in Paradise and one of the lyrics goes:

“and ill be running cause i figured out, the more i slow down the less i get out”

this post felt all over the place typed out, so take what you need and just KEEP RUNNING. 

love,

sar